*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

Last Monday marked the start of all the stress, study, and anxiety through five whole days of exams. This Tuesday, was the start of all exposure of results from last week. Overall, i'm not happy with my marks and i think these exam marks are going to lessen my chance of leaving. Even for science, i anticipated in receiving my mark back but i'm just so stupid that =\ Yes. Its better if i don't state my marks because certain people would have an opportunity to dig up this blog and i'll never be able to blog again.

So far we've gotten back; english, computing, science, maths, geography, pdhpe and still waiting on history, religion and i think thats about it. Its so funny how i never really used to care about my marks, but knowing that this year, Year10, is my opportunity to escape the life i'm living now. Can't help getting teary-eyed at the thought of staying where i am right now, LOL on the bus today i started sniffling and luckily i didn't quite start pouring my eyes out about my marks. I really do care about my marks this year its not funny. Although nobody is giving me pressure to be 'top of the class' or 'smartest girl in school' --- I am the one responsible for making myself so miserable by performing so poorly in the past examination block. Fingers-crossed that my report is not-too-bad and that those bloody schools can lower their standards to let me in.

I know theres no use crying over spilt milk, so i'm trying to be optimistic and keep my thought, spirits and hopes up for the long-waited letter of approval into aboslutely ANY school. I do admit it was my wrong that i did my last-minute studying, and spending precious study time on stupid Videogames, i really need to do something about this addiction. On the other hand, Jen stated a contradictive, yet true statement today --- that it would make things difficult if we did get to move schools because FIRSTLY you'd need to make friends, THEN you have to catch up to their school academic level, i might have difficulty knowing the stupid self i am.

Panda, i can't help but agree with you that Jay Chou rocks my socks! : ) You don't see many asians dancing like that and that fearless dance was just as sexy as my maple story character. Damn, don't convert me to Jay-Chou-ism. Also in the HK concert highlights, i saw a girl in the audience that had really nice hair =) i want her haircut, but i think her hair is about ten centimetres longer than mine T.T" But she definitely had chemically straightened hair :)

I love my blog, i feel much better after jotting down my semi-depressing thoughts on examination marks. I love you all that read my blog =) Although not many read.