*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

i wish my parents could do more than just tell me i don't have to be like this.. like what i am now.. i can't just stop the tears from forming.. i wish i could tell them how hard it is but i don't think they'll understand.. but at this time my dad doesn't even know i'm upset about this.. i'm not only upset because of my results that arrived today.. but the fact that i won't be going to the same school as hilda next year.. seriously i've gone through so much with hilda even though there was that period of time when she was with april and stuff.. majority of my time spent at this school was spent with a good friend. i know i can't help it my report was that much worser than hers.. but i'm actually scared of the fact that i'm going to a retard school by myself.. as much as i wish that that letter was a mistake and that letter was addressed to the wrong person..

apart from those reasons above.. the fact that my mum doesn't trust me to go to that school is upsetting, and she insists in taking me to see the school first before i make up my mind.. the thing is i've already made up my mind.. i want to go to tempe... i don't want to be stuck here.. but i'm scared i'll have trouble making friends... getting my way around... getting used to being in a co-ed school... i've believed that hilda would be there next year with me and we could make our way through together.. but now shes going to a better place :) and i'm happy for you babyyy! I know you'll have no trouble making friends because you're so friendly and easy to talk to.. but yeah =) CONGRATULATIONS HILDA!

all i have to do now is see the glass as half full; although its hard when your parents don't really support your decision.. but life goes on, i can't go around crying about it ... theres always a time in life when your friends have to leave you at some stage of your life ... like that chinese saying :) maybe next year is the year i have to learn to become independent.. i'll have to rely on myself to everything now... i have to try harderrrrr :] leannnnns a tough cookie !! YES! YES :] just thinkkkkk on the bright side leannnnnnnn! THINKKKK :) haha now i feel a little bit better i should go back to that commerce assignment thats due on friday... my head is spinning and mind is a blur as are my eyes but as they all say ... "have a good cry, and move on" =) cliche ey? but believe it or not, thats the way the world works.

bye sweeties :) <3


FUCKING and i don't appreciate it if they write all over the letter. Just because i didn't make it doesnt mean i don't want to keep the fucking letter. Fucking i swear my parents are the most unsupportive parents ever. Throwing out the fucking letter won't help either, you stupid bitches.