“baby you're the best i ever had”
i don't know what i feel like right now..
Sunday, October 01, 2006 || 4:04 pm
I'm so unsure of my position in this place.. i don't want to sound 'emo', but sometimes don't you feel a bit stepped on when everyone is all cheerful, and they try to criticise you but in a 'nice way'. I don't really enjoy being treated like i have been treated today. Its definiteyly not pms because i know my cycles. So don't just assume its always pms . I've been quite confused for a few days, the first few days of my term 3 holidays.
Some important people in my life don't even believe me. I swore to myself that i'd try harder for the yearlys/school certificate trials. But some of these people are just there to restrict me from my priorities. I'd probably live better if these people cared about education more. I'm not saying that education is my 'number one priority', but it would help
that much if they even cared for what i get in my exam grades. I have this feeling that the 'special care' i had in year 7 has already worn down to a zero. Nobody really cares what happens at school. So here i am, crying my eyes out because these people, who really should be the ones who trust me most, are doubting my schedules for these holidays would be productive. I feel that they're assuming all my time spent is all on 'meeting guys'
AS IF, and 'internet activities' that won't help my exams at all.
I just wish 'these people' would put at least a little tiny bit of effort to help me through year 10. Thats all i'm asking for ...
But tomorrow might be good, a day to relax and chill with my friends. I haven't done that in ages.. since year 8? But i'm anticipating for tomorrow, i'll at least be having a tiny bit of fun.
One more thing, i hate it when people say one thing, then contradict their previous statements because other people think that way. Why can't they be a little
fucking more original.
- i'm not emo. =) i'm usually a happy chap.