“baby you're the best i ever had”
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Sunday, April 22, 2007 || 7:05 pm
So here i am, back in front of this half broken computer seat, staring at the bottom right corner ... just waiting for something. Yes its all to my stupidity that i'm doing this to myself. To me, i don't think my expectations are too high that none are do-able. But i guess, to others they might be that difficult an expectation to meet. So here i am again, rambling on. I know people read my blog, they just don't bother with the fagboard located on the left. Maybe one day, i'll just keep my blog on private so nobody else can read it, or i should put a password through it so only my closest friends can access my 'inner thoughts'.
I can't believe i'm still in that same phase i was put through not too long ago. Usually the melancholy just wears away as the day progresses by, but this time it just lingers at the back of my mind. Whatever my activity may be, it just manages to push through all my other thoughts and surface on top of all my other thoughts and then my moods change. I'd like to apologise to the people i put down today, just to make myself feel that little bit better. I know it was selfish of me. Its just so dumb of me, to sit in front of the computer and wait for something to happen. Maybe its because i usually take the first step of initiating a conversation, i'm starting to get sick of the feeling of waiting... waiting... waiting. Especially when anticipation accumulates so many mixed expectations. Blahblahblah
Now i'm talking bullshit. I hate confiding everything to my blog. No i dont, yes i do. *sigh* This seriously has to stop. Schools just around the fucking corner, if i go to school like this. I know i'm just going to "break-down"(exaggerated) in tears when i think about everything. I hate crying, its the worst feeling ever.
PS. Hahaha Joanne you can't stop me from crying xD