“baby you're the best i ever had”
emotional rollercoaster
Tuesday, August 28, 2007 || 6:33 pm
These past few months have been quite a ride for me, in terms of emotions. Sort of makes me nauseous to know that i've damaged such a potentially perfect relationship because of careless speech and naivety. Theres this feeling in my tummy, which could be matched up with a washing machine.
To be honest, i feel really sick. Thoughts keep flooding back into my head, the memories, the good and the bad, all those sweet words i will never forget :) But i need to pull myself back together and let God decide on the outcome of a mutual decision. I don't understand :\ We started going out without initiation, we just went out --- will is also end like this?
I want to have faith in this relationship; but i don't like false hope. My head spins my vision into a blurry vision. Cool down.