*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

Hehe, almost one week since someone declared their ... Personally, i think its a little selfish of you. You know it too. I'm only asking for a bit of reassurance. I should just really, listen to what my advice giverer told me, then i'd be set for life. You think you've been hurt, but wheres your consideration for me?

Why why why is it that i just always fuck everything up. I personally think its the learning process, but its immature for my age? Hehe. I think not, i should just really restrain myself from it all. I'm going to just 'get over myself' and give them a bit of 'freedom'. Its so easy for guys to be all off themselves. With the initiation of such an event, they're forever happy. I'm going clinically insane, my thoughts are all over the place, i can't work, i can't just be me. WHY? Is this what a struggle is really about? To 'progress with difficulty'?

But what will really ring through my head is the moment "I enjoy freedom, okay?" was put through my head. It makes you think, is this all worth it?... all this trying ... "Why do you act like we never...", "Can't you just treat me like a friend?" Also really cut me, if it was just the relationship unwanted.. then it really isn't a big deal. OH MY GOD, i start to sound like him here. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. My emotions probably have made me clinically insane. I guess its not that easy to find 'the right person', let alone find him on the first go, right? :)

Now that i've voiced my opinion. I am going to lift my game, and just live my life as it is. Its not all bad really, it actually gives me more time to think through. They say 'if you love something let it go, and if it comes back then thats how you know.' -- Circle, Marques Houston. It is quite a sad situation, i'd admit. But i guess i don't really need people who call me names, feel uneasy talking to me, think i'm some random bitch that fell out of the sky.

LEANN LEANN! HAPPINESS, IS THE SWEETEST FORM OF REVENGE. LIVE IT!