“baby you're the best i ever had”
inimical
Wednesday, October 24, 2007 || 5:25 pm
This type of weather usually gives me the same effect as a big bottle of V. But today, is an exception... a definite exception. I'm such a klutz, i lose my mp3... i pissed everyone off today, i was quite a bitch to a few at school today too, and 'its too late to apologise' or i've already apologised thousands of hundreds of times that 'Sorry seems to be the most meaningless word' ... hahaha.... :\
Sometimes i wish i'd just 'grow up'. I wonder if my immaturity acts like some sort of repellant, where everyone starts to look down on you and make you feel. I just don't understand it... sometimes i just wished i was just a part of everyone's imagination or better yet non-existant at all. Why? Because it'd save everyone that little less pain, and maybe it would save many the worry or care.
But all i know is, i love being home. So much right now, only because campsie is a bit of a mess to me now. With people telling me different things, i'm quite unsure whether i should just stay out of their lives or not. Things will
never be the same again, thats for sure. But i guess things fall apart, for other things to fit in, right? :) Optimism usually gets you somewhere.