“baby you're the best i ever had”
this too shall pass
Thursday, November 01, 2007 || 6:11 pm
Some wise words that have been inscribed into my left upper arm by a close friend of mine. All you can do now, is hope :) Hope that by these words, i could draw the strength and know that there is always a rainbow after the storm. But some things just don't change, like how people would always just fire up on you because you are you. Sometimes i wonder if its for the sake of the important people in their lives, or do they really, and truly want you to evolve and become someone of great moral and ethics?
I have this irritating habit for not keeping my word, and it doesn't just annoy the people around me, but it does the slightest bit of hacking at my heart. I put all my strength and energy to plan something that will most definitely at least give me the tiniest hint that i'm going to be fine eventually. Not that i'm not right now! My friends are surely the best people to confide in, they are the ones i draw up the courage and strength from. Some peopleee just know they have the ability to put me down, and use it to the best of their ability. But i can confidently tell you that i'm getting over everything, lol like i can sleep at night without crying and yes i can actually SLEEP.
I'm going to keep initiation to a minimum. If they really truly care, they'd come back to talk.
I have this strange feeling that we're feeding their ego a bit. Sort of like 'sit back, relax and enjoy'. Contradictory much? CONTRADICTORY indeed, all the things you said about being spiteful, its funny when you're like a 10minute angel giving serious lectures and all but the next second its all hypocrisy.
Last night, i found my login for the xanga that contained the first post i posted when i first talked to jerry on the net. LOL :) I checked the subscriptions, and this other girl subscribed to my xanga on the 30th August 2006... Then she looked a bit familiar o__o then i remembered, that i saw her on Tuesday at UNSW... she kept looking this way and i got a tiny bit confused hahaha..
But yeah, i find that xanga cute, it brought back cute almost-teenybopper day memories.