“baby you're the best i ever had”
identity crisis
Friday, February 29, 2008 || 8:41 pm
I'll say, i'm just not too up to scratch with the emotions and stuff. I really don't like how i've been treated lately by some people. I think relationships (and i mean any type of relationship) is somehow like the depth of a lake, some people can manage to keep their friendships above the surface, where as once you grow closer and closer to someone, you may find that you're falling, drowning deeper and deeper into the darkness. Some might still be able to find that blur of sunlight through the dark waters, but others find no hope in reaching the surface again. I hate how i'm so emotional about things, i don't get why i'm so sensitive. It's not wrong to hate change, is it? And its also not wrong to adapt to change and not want to go back, right?
Maybe i'm just not in the mood, maybe i'm just avoiding facing the truth. I just don't like the way life is right this moment. Why do you control the way we are? I'm not letting you. Hypocrisy is your thing, i know. Don't just talk to me when you feel like it, because it's selfish. Think about how i feel too.
All i need to say is, i don't want to waste any more time. This is 2008, i've got so many more years ahead of me, i don't want to carry anything from the past into the future.
Blahblah... gay life.