*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

Hello fellows, i sit on my lazy ass here to tell you that i'm not dead yet. I'm dying, under all that work that i haven't touched since friday, but i'm not dead, yet. *hears people chearing* ... Thank you. Hahaha, so you see i've changed the layout, and hopefully it is here to stay. My life has undeniably been hijacked by the tyrannic terrorists of the HSC, and no i'm not ready to declare war against them just yet --- maybe some time in October.

I've been stressing days and nights on end about life and whatever-the-fuck i'll do after the HSC. Party? Become a hobo? Go to uni? Last option, hopefully. But they say, you can't succeed if you're not ready to work for the success. Which makes life that little bit harder, just a tad. Do you want to know what makes life even more difficult? Dickheads. Yes thats right, especially the ones that constantly stomping down on one's ego is going to bring their status sky-high. Haha, nice try mate! You may hurt me, but you can't break me --- betch. Its not a time for me to sulk around and cry in the corner over things that won't change themselves(i.e. the past) yet my emotional self has been in such a critical at such a crucial time. I can tell you, i absolutely love being around my friends and love their company. But these days, i find myself snapping at them for the littlest things, i wish i could stop. I can name several occasions where i have behaved like a total bitchface, and wouldn't have the slightest idea as to why i did. I do apologise to all the people i've mistreated in the past few weeks, and would like to make it up to you guys some time after November the 13th.

I've been angry at myself for a while now, for wasting time. Indeed i'm wasting time now, writing this all down, but at least its productive in one way or another. Something else that's going on in my mind lately is how utterly ignorant some people can be. I just don't understand how you can treat your friends with such hostility, especially the ones that have stood up for you and said good things about you to those who already dislike you(i.e. me). But oh well, its really your loss. I've hated your attitude for long enough, but i'd take it like a man >].

I'll update some other day. :)