“baby you're the best i ever had”
ugly coincidents
Monday, July 07, 2008 || 1:14 am
Have you experienced one of those times, when things happen at the wrong time in the wrong place? Well, I did. This afternoon, I'd kindly admit that it wasn't the most pleasant of all occasions. Out of all people i could have met, it had to be them. And out of all places, it had to be at Hurstville, just before i had English tutor for two hours. Call me hostile, but i'm just not really in the mood these days, to deal with people whom have caused (and admittedly i have caused) much annoyance and drama in my life. I've obviously gotten over the fact that those seven months were one big mistake that only ended in nothing but tears. And like most people, it would be preferable if they'd never seen their ex ever again.
I honestly, did not believe that i'd be put in such a situation, but i still wouldn't apologise for anything that happened today because i believe that i did absolutely nothing wrong. I have a right to hate them, and so forth. But why can't we just leave it at that? Why can't they just pretend to hate me or pretend of my non-existence?
But lets wrap things up, i just don't wish to be put in such a spot ever again. Well, not so soon anyways. My brain doesn't process as fast as it used to, it lags as a result of my constant attempts to study, which ends up with information overload anyways.
Tutor was somewhat useless, as per usual. Gladly enough, the head teacher there advised me halfway through my lesson that my two terms' worth of credit should expire very soon. But I lack the courage to snap back at tell them of that skipped lesson I initiated to make way for mathematical exam preparations. I don't know whether to laugh or cry, i know i'm constantly under bitching mode about english tutor and how it is utterly useless, but there have been times that it has been helpful, especially when they distribute notes on various modules that i haven't laid a finger upon in what seems like years (i.e. Antony and Cleopatra). I think what i need at this very point in my academia, is a 2U mathematics tutor. When i tell friends that extension 1 maths is easier than 2u, i usually get strange looks of sympathy.
With a major work due in the first week of term3, and an english assessment with a relatively heavy weighting on Speeches, i'm dying of stress. And on top of that, i need to manage my moneys, otherwise i'd be on a pretty low budget for my formal attire and whatnot. I don't want to look shit at my year12 formal! :( I'm sure no girl does!
Its 130am right now, and my mom is obviously with the fairies, hahaha i don't know how i can sleep through all that snoring, but i know i can cope! Leannch must try harder! This is my one shot opportunity to lead a better life than other people!
P.s. i'm hungry for korean bbq hahaha, although i sort of had some today already.
Anyways, i'm really going to go to sleep now, a looooong fucking day ahead.
P.p.s life fucking sucks, especially the HSC life. Yuck!