“baby you're the best i ever had”
To gain, one must first learn to let go.
Sunday, August 31, 2008 || 1:37 pm
Lately, studying has been my highest priority. And i am quite annoyed at certain things at the moment, but it all comes on par with that 'time of the month'. Honestly, if your intentions aren't any other than to help me get into uni, at least try to motivate me to study? I've been rather irate, i know, but i regret so many things right now. The HSC is just around the corner, quite literally, but it seems that i just can't bring myself to set my foot down and do what i really should be doing. And so many things just lead me astray from my path, it frustrates me so much, it makes me cry.
I have so many things to do, all these things to set straight to people, the list may be long enough to be used as toilet paper (no, that'd be gross).
I forgot to mention in my previous posts, how much its been bugging me, whenever i go karaoke people tend to choose the songs that really pull on my emotions and bring back crappy memories. I swear to god i'm not going to go k again in the near future if they don't sing chinese songs (lol) because i honestly hate the way the songs bring me back to the places in time that i've been trying to avoid for so long. It doesn't help either, the fact that he still tries to pretend that everything is okay, but the fact is, its not okay -- i still wished that nothing happened last year, so leave me the fuck alone. And then theres the dilemma, which only a few people know about, people i trust.
I hate being tied down. I hate sitting at my desk and trying to study.