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goals for march 2009
Saturday, March 07, 2009 || 1:27 am
Although we're already a week into March 2009, i'm going to set myself a few goals for which i'm going to pursue in the next few weeks. You may have found, that my blog entries have become more and more personal, and in the past, i've only been event-posting rather than talking about whats really in my life. Well.. i don't want to spill too much of my life onto the internet, but i really find that blogging it all out makes me feel heaps better. I've hurt so many people in the past two months already, and its safe to say that i've got a fuckload of other obstacles in my way.
I guess my lifes been a bit of a mess in the past month or so, and i'm really going to try and clean things up a bit, you know.. reflect on why things are happening and what i should really do about them. I've never been genius at problem solving, and i often do find myself taking the easy way out of troubles (e.g. ignoring/avoiding them). I don't want to do that anymore.
Some people in the world feel like they're rubbish to others their whole life. I've been feeling that for a month or two, which really isn't much compared to many, many other unfortunate people in the world. Although i may not have been acting it, i truly am grateful for everything i've got now. Friends, family ... an education, a roof to sleep under (zZzz)... everything. I think i've been trying to be someone i'm not for a while now, and i just want to go back to being the happy me, even if people think its fake <_<' But we won't talk about that right now.
Anyways, enough rambling and brambling! Here are my goals for the rest of the month:
- be happy
- study hard in order to internally transfer into the greater course !
- stop spending so much (my bank account has shrunk two-fold in the past 3 months)
- quit ________
- and stop drinking so much (i swear i look in the mirror and i'm like wtf, look so tired!)
Okay, my brain is starting to hurt (possibly from the alcohol from before), so i guess i'll stop here tonight.
And a last shoutout to hua ! Whom i wish a happy chappy birthday ! Being 18 isn't that big of a deal really :) it feels all the same, except you're just legally allowed to enter places you weren't able to set foot into before.
And a last thought for tonight: i hope that people would stop breaking up/cheating on each other. Don't attribute it to the HSC, its because one-way relationships don't work ! I hope people in rocky relationships right now can solve themselves out. And people who have lost friends because of how they feel (peterrr!), don't give up !
xoxo
leeeeeaaaaannnnnn !
p.s. first time at star city today ! the lights are so pretty.. no wonder why people like camping out there 24/7 !