“baby you're the best i ever had”
am i okay?
Monday, May 11, 2009 || 9:15 pm
I feel as though, I'm starting to buckle under pressure. I don't even know where this pressure comes from, but it's there, and it won't go away. Maybe i have a vague idea as to what will happen in the future. We all do, it's whether we choose to change it or not. Right now, i'm trying to figure out whether i should change what's going to happen or not. Not that I know for sure if i'm able to. This is... not just one thing that's bothering me now. I've started to realise a trend in life, the bad things happen to rain down on you in one rain cloud, whereas the good things don't come very often. Not for me anyways. Well, because these 'good things' don't come to me by themselves, I have to work harder for them. Is this why my life feels all crummy right now? I don't know.
I AM JUST HAVING A BAD DAY. I'M NOT ANGRY, I'M JUST SAD.
When you come across leann on one of these days, don't push her buttons, okay? I really don't want to snap at the friends who care, and then having to apologise later on, when i regret the things i'd say. Nothing's changed about that part of my personality, I'll always say things i regret, do things i regret. I can't get over all this regret.
FML
BY THE WAY. DON'T ASSUME SOMETHING AND THEN ACCUSE ME OF IT without proof. I'm not here just so you can make my life harder than it already is.