*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

This coming month poses as a real challenge for me. Time management, financial management, self control. I'm really not in the mood for these things, all i need is a bit of support. I can't say that my life is really at a minimum point because i know there are still a few things that outweigh the bad, but i'm starting to die under the workload that i've refused to 'resolve' for a while now.

May, the month before my first set of final exams. So many things happening, but i have to choose between partying and studies. Of course i'm going to try and balance the odds, but seriously? I feel that i have only once choice, but i'm avoiding it. Studying. Though we're well into the middle of the week, i know there are some things that are going on. I just have to type out my schedule so i know what's going on for me in the following few weeks.

Wednesday, 20th May. A supposed day of 'study' - which i've managed to waste a few hours on watching tv with mom and dad. I'm supposed to be writing my part in the marketing group thing. Or reading up on finance so i can contribute on Friday. Tonight is Melly's dinner at Pancakes @ Harbourside, and i will not be going to pre-drinks because i can't. I'll be leaving right after dinner because i have uni tomorrow at 9am and I've got work to do, plenty of work to do.

Thursday, 21st May. Originally was going to go to bsxc, which i've already got a ticket for but i'm definitely not going. I succumbed to peer pressure to buy a ticket
Friday, 22nd May. Also a day of study. The finance group plan to meet up on the friday at 12pm, UTS library to put together our assignment. I have absolutely no preparation for this. I'm failing the subject altogether. And then it's Kevin's birthday clubbing at the Cross. Again, i don't think i'll be attending because it's irresponsible of me to do so for obvious reasons as state above. Uni makes me cry.

Saturday, 23rd May. My first day at work in a new location, Broadway. 12:30pm - 6pm. FML. I'll already be jaded from work to actually do work afterwards. That's... 7 out of 24 hours of the day that'll be used for work. And if i miss another shift, it'll mean the 'termination of employment' at Diva.

WAIT. IT DOESN'T STOP THERE.

Sunday, 24th May. Will be trekking it up to Pennant Hills at Bee's place to finalise our marketing assignment with the group at 6pm. Hopefully i'll get some work done beforehand.

Monday, 25th May. Finance assignment to be submitted at 9am, how? I have not any an idea.

Tuesday, 26th May. Marketing plan to be submitted, in our tutorial. I plan to attend the lecture too. So that's at 10 - 8 day for me.

No time to relax after these dates either. I have to start cramming for finals, which i will most probably fail.

I actually want to go to transmission now... but it's probably not a wise decision seeing as my exams are in 3 weeks. FML

I just want to kill myself. Or find a way to rewind time back to the beginning of the year when i could still choose my course again. I should be a bit more selfish, and think about WHAT I WANT. Although business will benefit me more... I was never really a business person anyways. I really need to see a career's adviser. I want to cry. I really hope someone decides to do a drive-by shooting on my street and hits me on the .. hmm no i don't want to get shot. Or maybe i want a swine-flu scare, so people want to put me in quarantine so i don't have to do my exams. Hahaha.

Stop dreaming leann, and do some work.

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