*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

I've developed this habit of going to bed waaaay past my proper snoozetime. This probably is the main reason why i've result to lying in bed when the sun is up, and then i get off my lazy ass and out of bed waaay into the arvo. It's simply unhealthy, but i guess it's a result of my near-non-existent social life these days. I don't get it! Why do we whinge about not having enough holidays when we're at uni, and then when the holidays roll around, we cry about not having anything to do.

I've actually got something on my mind right now, and it's got something to do with uni. I don't know what to do if worst comes to worst. Honestly, this really teaches me a lesson. Never take the easy way out for anything. You reap what you sow. You put your effort into something, surely along the way in the future somewhere you will gain something in return. Do not think that good things in life come easily, because ... as someone once put it - easy come, easy go.

Oh and by the way, do not look down on me like I'm inferior to you. Your superiority is what you've fabricated from your ego and what others feed it. I wouldn't say it doesn't exist, but too much of something is never good for you. In this case, it'd be the people feeding your ego. What happened when we could have a comfortable conversation without awkward silences and whatnot? It just feels like you've distanced yourself from me, and from the people around us. Just because you think/feel that we're on two different levels. I guess it's a good thing you've elevated your 'standards', but is it necessary to eliminate your friends from your circle because they're just not worth anything to you anymore? True friends are hard to find. Right now, you're opting for more ordinary friends. Quality over quantity, dear. Keep that in mind, please!

I'm freezing. I should be in bed. I'm sleepy. I don't get a reply. I'll try not to care. Eventually, i'll stop becoming insecure from everything that happens around me. I'll learn to be somebody to a few people. Or i could be demoted to a nobody. Whatever happens, i'll know the names of the people who truly care for me. These people, would be my real friends :) LOVE YOU ALL (you know who you are)

Kimchi fried rice cravings have yet to be satisfied... maybe i'll try to channel it in my thoughts tonight so i can have some in lala-land :)