“baby you're the best i ever had”
Do I ever cross your mind in the warm sunshine?
Wednesday, September 30, 2009 || 10:49 am
I've turned this blog into a fairly personal writing space. But I cannot help the fact that hundreds thousands manage to find their way through my head and into my mind where they linger for weeks. I guess my new favourite song doesn't help anything either, but at least it's not something creepy like
Mad World by
Adam Lambert. I remember when Burke linked me to that song, he proceeded to explain the links between that melody to suicides back in the days. It's more because the song is played with so many flat notes repetitively, but it's a creepy fucking song, nonetheless.
I don't know why i'm blogging at this time of day. I'm really just this confused child sitting here, pondering about all the possibilities and choices i can take right now. I had my mind set on one thing for a while, until someone gave me a whole other perspective to analyse. It really is doing my head in, and now your intentions are lost in confusion. I can't figure out what it is that you want, i wished you wouldn't beat around the bush so often. And i wished you could just tell me the truth, tell everyone the truth. Instead of plotting up a half-assed excuse every single time.
If you cared, none of that shit would have happened. I've given up, so to speak. But maybe i'll give this 'friend' thing a go on Friday. And if its all fucked up, then don't be surprised that i don't sign in on msn anymore. Because it'd mean i fucking defriended you the whole freaking way. Motherbitch.