*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

I achieve a sense of satisfaction by reading other peoples' lives on blogsecret, because i feel that i have some sort of understanding as to how they're feeling. Maybe that's my biggest flaw :) i try too hard to understand people, but always end up getting things wrong. As Homer Simpson once said, the lesson would be to never try. Hahaha I jokes.

Look here's one that i hate being able to understand...

12285.) What I hate is, even though how much i try not to think about what others are thinking, more often that not, I still care what other people think about me.

12209.) I thought that things were going to get better, and I kept battling each day with a smile on my face, trying to find meaning and happiness.

Okay, i'm getting sick of reading. Too big a chunk of alphabet in a cramped piece of space. I've got this semi-inflamed eyeball that i'm scared will turn into a full blown eye infection. Oh no, i'm not going through that eye infection shit again :( being bed-ridden for 4 days straight.

Anyways. I'm really retarded. I've been trying to do z-scores all arvo, and it makes me cry harder than ever, at the fact that i have to try this hard to get something right when other people don't even need to lift a finger and stuff gets delivered to their door because stuff is retarded. As in, umm.. smart people don't need to make as much effort that I do/did. LOL Omg i was initially talking about study, but i subconciously changed the subject.

I must not fail :)

Grrr now i see all these secrets on blogsecrets about waiting/wasting time on people. Inequalities? Hahaha i forgot how to do the 3U ones, I think.

and last but not least:

12169.) I over-analyze everything.

... recently re-developed a love for Down by Jay Sean. LOVES IT <3
sigh, don't know why bothered giving you new number... pretty much made a fool of self. should learn not to keep trying if other side don't want to be associated w/ you no more. i need to keep reminding myself not to try any more because none of it is worth it. it's a lose/lose situation. you're bitched about if you're friends with them, youre also bitched about if you're not friends with them. oh well. can't make everybody happy. :)