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Tuesday, March 23, 2010 || 3:32 pm
Okay, i don't know why, but i had a sudden urge to blog. I try hard to steer clear of writing negative thoughts in here, but then I realise that was the whole reason i decided to start blogging, way back in 2005. It's difficult to avoid those topics when things around me happen so fast, I just can't keep up!
So back to my story, so much has happened between now and when i used to blog at least once per one or two days. Future Music was pretty impressive, but the stages were too far apart. It'd take at least 5-10min to walk from one stage to another, especially the distance between the main stage and the pavilion where Above&Beyond and Super8&Tab played. We didn't even see David Guetta, and the reason being the huge influx of people just before he played his set, most of this crowd consisted of drunk gangas. I've presumed festivals were predominantly caucasian-people dominated (to be 'politically correct' haha). Allow me to comment on footwear; if you wear thongs/open-toed shoes to a festival, you're asking to get stepped on. But I don't understand why so many people wore thongs, it was a hot day, yes it was, but i'd rather suffocate my feet than get my toes cut/trampled on by the mobs of drunk people that would come and go. Anyhow, my memory of the day has been eroded/overridden by issues that have been spontaneously themselves with my life.
(most of) our group, others came later :)
Jess' birthday night out at the cross was another one of the memorable nights i've had so far of 2010. Fine dining at a cosy little Italian restaurant, the location as well as the name has completely slipped my mind, but the food was scrumptious - especially the pizza that Jess ordered! Then we set off to Soho, I had low expectations of the place from prior experience (Kevin&Davo's birthday) so I had mixed feelings about going again. But once we hit the club, things definitely set off... and had free shots which were just favours for the guests on Jess' birthday guest list. So after my second time in the cross, my opinions have improved :) but I have yet to explore beyond Soho...! Photos are on my Facebook, you should be able to access them unless I've blocked you from viewing them/you are not connected with me on Facebook.
It's now the 4th week into our Autumn semester at uni, and I've been struggling to keep up with my work. I'm about a chapter away from being on par with my studies, but I'll definitely try to work ahead so to allow more time for revision when our examination block comes around. So far, I've managed to convince myself that the subjects i'm studying this semester are quite interesting... but now that all my uni friends have gone off and chose different majors, there's no time for catchup sessions anymore since everyone has different class times now.
Mmm... and I hate how people always seem to find a way to turn friendship into some sort of political competition. Sometimes I feel that I'm obliged to live up to other peoples' expectations as a friend, and believe me, I do try. But somehow, I find that I'm the only one trying. I've always told myself that there are times when I need to be a bit more selfish so I can set myself straight before I care about others. I'm not a woman with the great ability to multitask, in fact ... I'm horrible with it. So please, please, please, pleaseee don't treat me like your pet: that is, don't talk to me as if you 'own' me, don't try to coerce me into your ways of life and if i don't follow you, you shouldn't treat me any less. I've been lied to and cheated on multiple times, yet i never stop making the same mistakes. I'm going to stop being a 'disposable' friend, i know people trample all over me because they know they can. I don't know to do :(