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Wouldn't it be nice to be live in oblivion without being accused of being ignorant, or labeled a 'bad egg'? I've considered this multiple times. We as humans are given the choice to choose our emotions(unless you're a little on the mental side), but what we choose to feel and thus expressed through our behaviour may consequentially lead people to make unfair conclusions about you or those people around you.

I can choose to suppress the bad feelings I'm involuntarily feel - guilt tripping works a treat on me (i just know it!). But what happens if this balled up negativity starts taking its toll on your mentality...? We could just choose to act like we don't know that our actions are affecting those around us so much. But by doing so, we are hurting so many people at once.

Sometimes you hate someone so much but you're not entitled to feel that way towards them. There are so many things I want in life... but one of my highest priorities is to achieve the ability to give my parents whatever they needed/wanted. Especially my mother... she works her butt off for the family... and on top of that she has people who can't swallow their pride and help her out with things they are capable of, but have the audacity to open their palms and ask for money.

We're not exactly well off, but at least we have a family... a roof to live under... and each other to love. But sometimes the equation doesn't quite work out... I don't know what to do, but this situation is a shit situation.

All I want is for people to stop putting on a front and admit to weakness. I wish for sincerity and gratitude...

... and maybe a little more money. Hahaha! :)