“baby you're the best i ever had”
exhausted
Thursday, June 09, 2011 || 10:50 pm
My outsides look cool
My insides are blue
Everytime I think I’m through
It’s because of you
I’ve tried different ways
But it’s all the same
At the end of the day
I have myself to blame
I can’t believe I’m trippin’
Unpretty - Glee Cover (TLC)
Wow, I'm so bloody tired... my eyes feel so dry and sleepy. This weather is really making me feel even worse than I already am. With exams around the corner, and a so-far uneventful uni break coming up... I just feel like flying somewhere random in the world and have my own little moment on this big, big planet.
This is my own flaw, I bottle up my emotions... hold them all in. I try with all my might to contain myself, but sometimes I explode with anger, frustration and self-hatred. I don't want to tell anyone, I don't want to talk to anyone about it... I don't want to be the burden this time. I remember times when I used to be the rock. People would ask me for advice, and to myself, it'd sound like pretty reasonable advice. I just feel like I was more clear headed before than I am now. Is it possible to balance out relationships? Is it possible to survive no reciprocity?
But at the end of the day, I have myself to blame.