*HAPPY SOUL

“baby you're the best i ever had”

OMG. I am really starting to stress out now, I can't believe I'm going to say this but... I wish I wasn't so ballsy and quit my previous job like that. Regardless of how shit they treated their employees. Now I can't find a job that can match the same rate, nor the same job security. I'm so stressed out now, I could cry. What the fuck money am I going to spend when I'm in Hong Kong? I'm really not keen on the borrowing money, anybody's money. Not the bank's money, not my boyfriend's money, not my mum's money. All i want to do is work my fat ass off before I fly off to Hong Kong and hope I have at least a grand saved. This is so fucked up....... I know feeling regret isn't going to help me with anything now. That 1k start up scholarship was my back up plan. But knowing me, I spend money on food and random shit that I don't need. OMG I'm going to cry just thinking of how much of a bored bitch I'm going to be in HK just because I can't even afford to eat the yummy food or GO anywhere for that matter... FUUUUUCK! I never should have stopped looking for a job even after I was called in to do that one-day job. People will only call you, when they need you. It's a lesson learnt.

So I've looked up a few on Seek.com.au tonight, and tomorrow I'm going to tailor each and every cover letter for their respective companies... Or I might cheat and just make some for retail and others for customer service shit. Or I'll just change a few words here and there. As annoyed as I am, nothing can be changed now... I can't just sit around and expect people to lend me money when I'm in HK.

I'm currently really fucking annoyed at this person. So much, I wish they'd go back to China and just disappeared... I wouldn't mind if he got kidnapped and some Chinese mafia stole all his organs to put on the black market. Bahaha, wake up and find yourself in a bathtub full of ice and a nice big gash across your side where one of your kidneys used to be. Okay, nah that's a bit cruel. But you're really annoying. You've told me lies, pretty much every single time we've talked. And I'm so glad I haven't met up with you for coffee yet because honestly, I see you only as a waste of time. Your a figment of my past now, and let's keep it that way. THANK YOU!

Hmm... Oh so many 21st's coming up and I have no FUCKING MONEY TO SPEND. FUCK. But I'll make an effort to attend them all... with or without my boyfriend because he always seems to have something better to do rather than meet my friends. I'M SO ANGRY OMG. ;( Oh and I have to get my passport stuff done soon as well... $200+ to get a fucking little black book to allow me to go places, embedded with some stupid microchip shit in it which exposes me to many identity theft threats. What a fucking joke.

MY HORMONES. They're all over the fucking place alright? DEAL WITH IT. OK GOOD NIGHT BEFORE I FUCKING EAT SOMEBODY (because i'm hungry)

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This part was edited in because I accidentally told my bf to read this post but then he said he hoped there was something nice in here. So this can be the 'nice' bit.

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