“baby you're the best i ever had”
memories
Monday, January 14, 2013 || 9:00 pm
I had a 'me day' to day and it was magnificent because I got so many things done except for two:
The former, will probably take another month or so... but I will do my uni timetable after I've showered and washed my hair because I need it for tomorrow to work out which days i can come in over Autumn Semester.
It wasn't a complete 'me day' today because I did end up having coffee with a friend today at 'melt' in burwood today. Silly me thought I ordered a soy capp with two sugars, but the guy gave me a blank look and asked me if i was sure i wanted the sugar because it was already really sweet. I hadn't understood why anyone would put chocolate in a cappuccino but I realised afterwards when my friend called me crazy. Hahaha anyways the point is, I think i've found my so called 'resolve' now as well... and that is to treat x as if he 'ceased existence' for those who like euphemism. I'll retain all the funny and happy memories because I know there are so many things that we've done together and I can't avoid it when things happen and bring back good memories.
As we were walking out of the coffee shop, paranoid as I am I asked my friend if I had chocolate on my face, after all, I did have a chocolatey soy mocha! That was when I had a flashback of being on a bus with x on the way to Eastwood and we had eaten some sort of molten chocolate. I remember those flecks of chocolate placed so cutely on his cheeks and around the corner of his mouth and me laughing at how stupidly cute he looked. Hahaha and then he told me I had chocolate on my face too, but being the self-assured 'neat and tidy' one I didn't believe him even after we made a bet on it.
These little things will always induce a chuckle or two... and this is why I will face all these memories until I run out of things to remind me of us. I've taken this perspective because I know the way x treats his ex's, and that is to walk past them or allow them to walk past without a hello or a see you or even a smile. And I know I've already been turned into another number on his list of ex's so this is my way of dealing with it.
Woo! Being able to actually blog about this in a positive light is already an achievement for me!
Right in the feels.